There comes a time in ones life when one must face reality; the hard truth. A time when one must have a belief further than the naked eye can see. A time when a man hangs up his childish games to see a bigger picture. Now to the naked eye this man sees a picture so complete; his life. Now his heart sees what the eyes can’t, a missing piece; A wife. With her, she brings the belief deeper, further, richer than which eyes can see. A belief in Us, Trust, and Eternity.
I am a young man of great misunderstandings. Perceived to be of many things that are not of my character. A wall of my exterior is what many see because my interior is of hand-crafted delicacy. A young man who is driven by the heart. Fueled by the will of my feelings. Steered by the aspirations of my mind. This I Am.
A child I once was. Full of ignorance. Simply trying to find my way in life. Often discouraged with outcomes of the situations that were bestowed upon me. Shying away and retracting from the world was my coping mechanism. Day by day, life has changed. Some for the good and some for the worse. Causing me to constantly reflect on the goals, morals, and values that help make me the man that I am today.
Growth is a wonderful but yet dangerous thing. I’ve grown to accept and not stress the things in which I have no control over. However, does that make me more suseptable the the way of others and the world?
Reaching into the depths of my mind. I lay my head to my pillow frequently, to travel to the depths of my dreams. Surpassing the darkest thoughts to rest my eyes upon her divinity. Frequently I arise to the bright or cloudy skies of reality, I hold my head high with a smile. Traveling through the thoughts that fill my frontal lobe. Trying to decode the meaning of many conversations, outings, memories I just say. Confusing they are. One meaning one day, another meaning another day. It all seems to surreal. Could this be the moment, the very moment I’ve been waiting for? Could she and all her imperfections be perfection for me? Many questions like these steadily flow through thy mind like the river bend….
Reality hits. Cloudy skies clear. You realize that you were wishing on a star. Noticing that what you thought was mutual ground is nothing but rocky unpaved roads leading to nowhere. Reality hits. You realize the actions don’t match up. Do you give up and lose hope?, no. You take it for what it is and let whatever happens happen. Reality hits. And you realize that you wanted way more than what was wanted by the other. You realize that you were living in a fantasy of what ifs, in a world of infatuation rather than a world of realities.